Friendship is a funny thing..and as I become older, I hold my friendships so close to my heart.

Would it surprise you, if I told you I didn’t have many healthy friendships until college?

Maybe that’s sad, but it’s true for me… and I believe true for many people.

I have talked many times in my life about my anxiety & self-worth, I have had self-esteem issues for most of my life. Even now, some days I have “imposter syndrome” and don’t feel worthy of the things I have in my life.

Honestly, I always thought these feelings stemmed from mostly the relationship I had with my Dad growing up.
(Spoiler alert: I was wrong.)

It has taken me years of therapy, to truly digest all of the toxic relationships I have allowed in my life.
I can’t pin point it on one person, but moreso on the behaviors I allowed others to have in my presence.

I allowed people to treat me with so little respect, because I never valued myself as a human worthy of anything but the feelings of unworthiness.

Therapy, has allowed me to process what I have been through in my lifetime… friendships I thought were unbreakable… were the most unhealthy and toxic.

Hard pill to swallow?
Absolutely, when someone that is so pertinent in your life growing up and into the beginning of this thing we call Adulting..becomes someone who was just holding you back and causing your feelings of never being enough.

Maybe, I will share more on this later… but for now I just want everyone and anyone to know that you are WORTHY of anything in this life.
You are worthy of love.
You are worthy of respect.
You are worthy of relationships that build you UP and never tear you down.

It’s something it has taken me 30+ years to realize, and I hope you, whoever you are reading this… realize it too.

❤