I wonder who you would be if you were still here today.

I wonder what you would accomplish, what career you would choose.
I wonder who you would love, or who would have broken your heart.
I wonder if you’d have cute little babies with your perfect smile, in a house with a white picket fence.

I wonder what life would be like if you still walked this earth, how we all would be different.
I wonder if we would still be friends, or if we would slowly drift apart.

You pop into my dreams at random times, I feel you there as if it’s a reality.
I wake up and smile, because I know you slipped in my dreams just to reassure me that you are well.
I reach back in my mind for all of the great memories you left me with.
I read through our last messages, of how proud you said you were of me for what I have accomplished.

I will never understand why it was your time to go.
I will never understand why God needed you more than me.
I continue to trust that His need for you was more than mine.

Heaven was ready for you, but my heart was not.
I’m thankful to know that you’re always watching over us, with every beat of my heart, I know that you’re there.

And one day, we will meet again.

*Dedicated to Joshua Leaverton and all the other sweet souls we have lost.*